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16 May 2010 @ 01:17 pm
amy thoughts  

Bits of dialogue:

"The Doctor'll fix it."

"We have to grow up eventually."
"Says who?"

"Save him. You save everyone, you always do. It’s what you do."
"Not always. I’m sorry."
"Then what is the point of you?"

Turns out Rory's right, though not in the way he thinks: everyone has to grow up eventually. Amy believes in the Doctor; when she says "The Doctor'll fix it," she doesn't think, she doesn't hope, and she doesn't give him wide-eyed, adoring praise: it's just a fact. A thing she's known her whole life, in spite of the psychiatrists telling her otherwise. The Doctor fixes things. But when Rory dies, and the Doctor can't save him, "the Doctor'll fix it" is no longer a fact. And if the Doctor doesn't save people, then how is he the Doctor? "Then what is the point of you?" (And in the face of that, the Doctor doesn't--can't--argue; he can only give Amy the keys and let her take her course. I really, really love this, btw: that he gets into that van even though he's not sure that Amy's right, to make this particular choice.)

Another episode--probably a lesser episode--would have rammed that home, had Amy leave the TARDIS after learning that about the Doctor. But instead Amy continues to travel with him, trust him*; she's just that little bit more grown-up.

(*Or does she; I'm thinking back to "Flesh and Stone," where Amy, eyes closed, says something to the Doctor that she can't say with her eyes open; when the Doctor says to trust him, she says "How can I, when you don't tell me the truth?" But she closes ranks against the Dream Lord, protecting the Doctor ["He never apologizes." "He doesn't need to."]:

"Oh, is - is that who you think you are: the one he trusts?"
"Actually, yes."
"The only girl in the universe to whom the Doctor tells everything?"
"Yes."
"So what’s his name?"

That last line is supposed to be the zinger--but we don't need it to know that Amy's wrong; she knows it herself, and has already told us. Which makes sense, once the episode's over and we know there's no Dream Lord; how much of that is the Doctor talking to Amy, and how much is Amy talking to herself?)

Also: Amy/Rory interests me. In "Vampires of Venice" the Doctor suggests that all that time travel and adventure changes people, so they see that world and can't settle down again in their old, accustomed one. His solution is to bring Rory along, let him experience that other world too, so that he and Amy will still match. But "Amy's Choice" seems to suggest that their differences are more basic than that. When presented with the settled dream-world, Rory wants that right away, and Amy wants to run from it: it's not for her, not yet if ever. (Getting married =/= living in the village that time forgot, and even in that dream world, she implies that she's so starved for something that she gets pregnant just for something else to do. If she and Rory get married, I can bet it won't look like that. And yet, she defends that life, too: "This is my life now, and it just turned you white as a sheet. So don't call it dull again, ever.")

What should we make of Amy's comment that Rory is "always so insecure"? How much of Rory's insistence on the settled life is fear that he'll lose Amy without those ties? And yet Amy... she's more certain than she thinks she is, about Rory if not about the shape their life will take. She seems surprised and hurt when Rory accuses her of running off with another man: "Not in that way," she says; and it's a distinction that makes perfect sense to Amy, but possibly not to Rory? In response to the Dream Lord, she says, "I have chosen. Of course I've chosen. [beat; to Rory] It's you, stupid." She's not demonstrative about her feelings for him, and maybe Rory undervalues them because of it? She says "It's you, stupid" like it's something no one should have to question, despite her love for adventure, the part of her that is like the Doctor ("What's wrong with you people?" Rory exclaims in "Vampires"; they're two of a kind). They puzzle me; I want more from the two of them.

In mostly unrelated news, I love the bit where Rory calls the Doctor "Mister Cool," and then we cut to Matt Smith shambling along bonelessly in the street, trying not to fall asleep. Love.
 
 
 
stoplookingup: eleven amy rory benchstoplookingup on May 16th, 2010 06:12 pm (UTC)
I think Amy learns that neither of her two men is what she thinks he is: the Doctor is not an invincible hero, and Rory will not always be there no matter what.
tempestsarekind: eleven and amytempestsarekind on May 16th, 2010 06:18 pm (UTC)
Ooh, yes, that's a very good point about Rory! I think Amy has a tendency to see him like that, because he's so patient with her--but this episode proves that that's not true, either.
Constant Reader: doctor who - rainbow tardisskirmish_of_wit on May 17th, 2010 12:47 am (UTC)
I loved this episode so, so much. I'm about to rewatch it because I just can't concentrate on anything else; I keep thinking about the characters and it's my favorite kind of episode, so character-y and logic-y and heartbreak-y. And so quotable! Oh, SHOW. ♥
tempestsarekind: eleven and amytempestsarekind on May 17th, 2010 06:34 pm (UTC)
I'm about to rewatch it because I just can't concentrate on anything else

I felt the same way (hence this second post)! Seriously, if I didn't have all this grading to do (almost done!), I would still be thinking about it.